Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Day 10
Monday, May 23, 2011
Day 8
32 days until 34 weeks
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Day 7
But I'm still scared. I'm worried and nervous about what the future holds for us. If Monkey arrives in the next few weeks, what long term effects will we have? Will he/she have long term health problems because of this, will it be a miracle and he/she will turn out as perfectly healthy as Jack did? How will having a baby in the NICU affect Jack? Is he old enough to understand and comprehend all of this? Are we expecting too much out of him? I don't know. It's all of the unknowns that run through my brain. And all I can do right now is pray. Pray for understanding. Pray for peace. Pray for our family.
I had a friend stopped by today and it was the best conversation and exactly what I needed. She is a labor and delivery nurse so she understands this...from all sides. She has a son about Jack's age, so she gets how this affects our family. She's a labor and delivery nurse, so she understands all of my fears. Not that our other friends haven't been able to understand...it's just that she got it. She said a lot of things that made sense and put my mind at ease. Going through all of this is going to have to force Jon and I to do things and let go of things that we never have before. We don't have the complete control that we did before, and that's okay. She helped me realize that as tough as all of this is, this will make us stronger. Stronger as a couple, stronger as parents, stronger as a family. It was a blessing to have her stop by and I'm sure she'll never fully realize how awesome and amazing that was.
So yes, tonight is a tough night. Tomorrow will be another day. We will have more answers tomorrow about what the plan is and know more about how Monkey is doing. Pray that tomorrow is a better day! So in the mean time, I'm going to keep reminding myself day after day that God never, ever gives us more than we can handle. In every situation that He puts us in, He knows that we can handle it. He knows what He's doing and we just have to trust in His plan. Day by day...
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Day 6
Friday, May 20, 2011
Day 5...21 days to go
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Day 4...24 to go
Right now, Monkey has flipped around and is now breech. But when you're only 28 weeks...there is still alot of room to flip and rotate around! The ultrasound tech did say that the fluid around the baby looked slightly low, but nothing to get worried about yet. Monkey still moves around a lot and is very active, which is great news.
Unfortunately, this is all just a waiting game. Waiting to see if my cervix is thinner...waiting to see if I've dilate more...waiting to see when this miracle will make it's entrance into the world! Our first goal is 32 weeks...and then we'll re-adjust our goal at that time. I asked Dr. VanEerden what my chances are of making it to 32 weeks, or 34 or 36 for that matter! Of course, it is hard to predict, but he did say that he has a mom next door who is pregnant with twins. She came in at 26 weeks, with a cervical length of 5mm and dilated to 5 cm. She's been in for 6 weeks and is still holding on. So with a story like that, it gives us hope!! Hope that the only thing we have to do is bedrest and we'll get through all of this with a healthy baby at the end!
There are so many things that you hope for when you find out that a baby is going to join your family. I think one of the last things people hope for is a term pregnancy...it's just expected. With every bump in the road along this pregnancy, it has shown me just how strong our marriage is, how strong our faith is, how strong our family is and how truly blessed we are. We have Nikki living with us and able to help out with Jack. We have a wonderful church family who is willing to help us out with Jack and help with meals. We have a wonderful team of doctors and nurses who are doing everything they can to keep this pregnancy going. We have a mom at our daycare who is a Child Life Specialist who can help Jack to understand a lot of this. We have Jen who has the patience of a saint with Jack, as he tries to understand all of this. It's summer, so we have my mom, Jon's mom, and Jon's aunts available to help since they're out of school. I have a group of nurses that I work with that stop by to break up my day. We have numerous friends who check in and pray. We truly are blessed with so many things. But most importantly, I've realized what an amazing husband I really have. Jon has been my rock and I am so thankful for that. I am lucky that he does so much with Jack and he isn't one of those dads who is just there. Jack is lucky to have a dad like him and I know that with our faith we will make it through all of this.
Well, that's probably enough for today. We'll see what tomorrow brings and go from there. Jon and Jack are going to come up for supper tonight. Last night was a bit too busy, so I'm anxious and excited to see them both! Thank you all for the continued prayers and keep 'em coming!!
Jon, Jack, Libby and Monkey
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Day 3...25 more to go for our goal
So here we are, at Hotel Sanford, watching and waiting. When I first was pregnant and talking with my doctors, we had the goal of at least 37 weeks...they felt that was very possible and things looked good. So change in status as my cervical length wasn't so hot to start. Then the goal went to 34 weeks (when Jack came). Now the goal is 32 weeks. So that gives me 25 more days to go. Every day from here is absolutely a blessing. For every day that this baby stays inside, is said to save about 2-3 days in the NICU. From working in the NICU, we completely understand this. Dr. VanEerden was in this morning and I'm still having some contractions here and there...nothing consistent, nothing to get that excited about. But that does mean I'm still here. I'll be switching medications and POSSIBLY going home in the next few days. Doubtful, but possible. I'll have another ultrasound to see if my cervical length has shortened again and see if I've dilated anymore. That will depend on if my bedrest continues in the hospital or if it continues at home. Everything is a waiting game and as far as I'm concerned...I'll wait 70 days if it means I'll have a healthy, term baby. Please keep our family in your prayers as things are a bit crazy with coordinating schedules and Jack and everything. Thanks for checking in!!
Sunday, May 15, 2011
28 weeks
Monday, April 11, 2011
Changes, Changes Everywhere!!
Monkey has also been causing his/her own distractions! This may be a bit personal for some of you, but we've all talked cervical lengths before, so nothing new! Well, the 48 mm cervical length we got last time seemed to be a fluke. My cervical length was 26 mm the first time they measured and well...this last time was 26 mm again. So my perinatologist went and looked at all of the measurements and confidently said my cervix is 26 mm. Now you're probably wondering what's the big deal...well, they don't really want it to be less than 30 mm. So 26 mm isn't a huge dip below, but at 25 mm, that's where they start intervening. By intervention, I mean betamethasone shots (steroids to boost the baby's lungs) and magnesium sulfate (to protect the baby's brain) in case I would go into labor and deliver sooner than later. If my cervical length drops drastically (like 26 down to 18), then intervention will more than likely start happening. If it goes to 25, then it sounds like just more ultrasounds. So we've been a bit nervous about all of this. I'm only 23 weeks and that's barely over half, barely over viability. After working in the NICU, my mind is always more at ease after 27 weeks. My only hope and prayer is that Monkey just stays put and things continue to stay stable at 26 mm. Having a baby before 27 weeks is terrifying for me. There are just so many things that can happen. Like I said, my only prayer is to make it past 27 weeks. I have my next ultrasound on Monday, so that will determine a lot! So for now, we continue with progesterone shots (which hurt like a b*tch by the way!) and keep watching.
Monkey definitely has a different temperament than Jackson. Jack would move around constantly and you'd have something touching my stomach and Jack would punch right back! Monkey...not so much! Jack has been trying very hard to feel Monkey move around and Monkey just doesn't want to be discovered yet! Not even by Daddy either. We'll see if this babe's temperament truly is completely opposite of Jack!
I'll post again after our next ultrasound...send up lots of prayers!! Monkey has a LONG time to bake and keep cooking!
Monday, March 21, 2011
Halfway mark!
Shots are going better than expected. Jon is doing an excellent job! There's another lady at work who is a few weeks ahead of me and she's also doing shots. She's having some of the nurses do it for her and Jon was fairly excited when I told him that she had bruises from her shots. Haven't had that yet...Jon is proud! :) Still not fun, but going well. 3 down...15 more to go!
Our big move is this week...Jack is being very helpful with packing up his own things, although he does get a tad confused about what we're taking with us. Toys...yes. Counter...no. Bikes...yes. Walls...no. He'll get it figured out eventually! Our next blog will be at our new address...how exciting!!
Monday, March 7, 2011
Ta Da!!
Sunday, March 6, 2011
18 weeks and counting...
Tomorrow is also an exciting day, as we will be having our big ultrasound tomorrow! And no, for those of you out there who are wondering, we will not be finding out the sex of this little being. We were surprised with Jack and loved that surprise so will be doing that again! We're just hoping for a nice, healthy baby. We've got names picked out for both a boy and a girl (and yes, those will also be kept a secret!) so we're ready to go!
I'll post ultrasound pictures tomorrow!
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Week 17
Next Monday is our big ultrasound, which I'm super duper excited about. We can't wait to take another peak at Monkey and watch the acrobats that I've been feeling! We'll get to do a 4D ultrasound, which is really cool to see. Sanford (our hospital) is doing a research study, called Safe Passage, to study prenatal care and SIDS. I got chosen for this study and it certainly is interesting! They asked everything from how much macaroni and cheese I ate the month before I got pregnant to when was your last alcoholic drink prior to conception and what was it. Odd to say the least and hard to remember! One of the bonuses to this study is some extra ultrasounds throughout...I can certainly answer some odd questions if we get extra peaks of Monkey! After the baby is born, they will do some extra hearing tests, watch brain waves and movements...also random, but we know this research study will do some good!
Well...the brownies I made are calling my name, along with the mint oreo ice cream! The only benefit to all of this puking is minimal weight gain so far...my sweet tooth is thankful for that right now, I guess! Until next week!!
Here's the pics we've taken of Monkey's growth!
Sunday, February 20, 2011
And we're at 16 weeks!
Jackson has lovingly nicknamed our baby, monkey, and continues with it, so that's what this babe will be called until his/her arrival! Monkey is starting to do some mild acrobats over this past week. Seems that Monkey likes sweets or just eating in general, as that's when I feel the most movement! Jack is still very excited and wanting to talk with Monkey and sing songs, but has a hard time remembering that he can't just run and jump on Mommy for a while. Gentle reminders...and it'll happen soon enough!
Here's to hoping that everyone is right with the prediction that puking will stop soon! It'd be a huge plus to our lives right now!! We'll catch up soon!
Jon, Libby, Jack and Monkey
P.S. This week's homemade ice cream will be Mint Oreo...I'm ecstatic!!
Sunday, February 13, 2011
It's Baby Time!
Overall, I've been feeling OK...well, scratch that idea. I've puked almost every single day since about 8 weeks...7 weeks of getting sick every night is not my idea of fun, but what do you do! It's all a part of making a miracle I guess. I've tried different meds and nothing seems to do the trick. My doctor gave me something else to try and said it might cause some drowsiness...HAHA!! I felt like I had taken a horse tranquilizer! I took it at 5:30 and was dead asleep on the couch at 7:30 and didn't even move until 10:30 when Jon woke me up to go to bed...and then slept until my alarm went off! So scratch that one off the list! Other than getting sick almost every day, I've felt pretty good. Hopefully it continues that way!
Now because Jackson decided to make an early arrival, it bought me a visit with a perinatologist (a doctor who specializes in taking care of high risk pregnancies). Lucky me, starting at 18 weeks, I'll get to be doing progesterone shots. If anyone knows me extremely well, I HATE shots and HATE needles! Oh well, it's all a part of pregnancy I guess! Jon will be learning how to administer these and he's been given 1 warning...if he doesn't do a very good job....I'm finding someone at work to give them! I'm sure it'll be fine...I'm just not looking forward to it at all!! I'll also be getting ultrasounds every other week to check my cervical length. They don't know when I actually started with preterm labor with Jack, so we're being extra cautious this time. We're not planning on finding out what gender this little being is until he/she arrives, so hopefully with that many ultrasounds....it stays a secret!
Come back often to see how things are going...with this going on, I'm hoping to be better at updating our blog!
Monday, January 24, 2011
Woooo Hooooo!!!
Monday, November 1, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
5 Days down
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Jackson sans his tonsils!
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Well...
Since this isn't that "fun" of a post, thought I better add some pictures!!
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Picture Time
Monday, August 23, 2010
Happy 3rd Birthday, Jackson Conrad!!
Jack was super excited to get a new digital camera, which he promptly needed opened and has proceeded to take lots of pictures of people's legs and other odd things. The biggest surprise to both Mom and Dad was how awesome Jackson did with his new big boy bike. Neither of us thought he'd be tall enough to reach the pedals and really get going. Boy did he prove us wrong!! He got right on that bike, started pedaling like he had been for years and away he went!! Up and down the sidewalk, around the corners at high speeds...he did awesome!!
This morning, Jack got woken up with candles on his birthday cookie. Yes, everyone gasp and pick up your jaws! We let him have a monster cookie for breakfast in bed!! He thought that was great!! Then Mommy headed off to work and Daddy took over birthday duties. Jack got to pick whatever he wanted to do! Fishing and mini-golfing it was. What a Daddy!! Jack had so much fun and couldn't stop talking about it! Tonight, we attempted to go to Daddy's softball game....attempt being the key word! We got there, it started sprinkling. Jack really wanted to go, so we went. Pretty soon, it's sprinkling more steadily...and then suddenly, here comes the rain! Daddy ran in from the field and finally convinced Jack we needed to go home. So grab my purse, attempt to hold on to the blanket, pick up Jack and run! Hauling a now 3-year-old is hard work! Man oh man, was I wiped!! Jack thought it was hilarious running in the rain. When we got home, all he wanted to do was feel the water from the rain spouts...didn't bother him at all that we were both soaked!!
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Here's to July
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Happy Father's Day!!
Jackson was so excited for today! Yesterday, I worked on setting up a treasure hunt for Jon and Jack to do this morning. Lucky for me, Jon went to bed before me last night (rarely happens...I was busy doing Arbonne things!) so I could go hide all of the clues and presents while he was in bed. All of the clues were Jack-isms that he says commonly (such as 'don't push me' when he's on his tryke, so the clue went in the basket on his tryke). Jack and I made monkey bread this morning and took Jon breakfast in bed. Jack thought that was really cool to eat in our bed. Good thing we only do that a few times a year!! So then we gave Daddy his cards and away they went on their treasure hunt. Jon would say the phrase and then you could see Jack's wheels spinning and off they'd go! It was cute to watch them work together and find the next present.
So after that, we went to church and then headed to town for lunch. Since it was Father's Day, we took Daddy to Red Lobster (gasp....what, Libby went to Red Lobster?!?! yes, I can handle it once in a blue moon...just not often!!) One of the waitresses even got a lobster out of the tank for Jack to hear. He thought they were really cool crawling in the tank...not so much when it was out of the tank! She showed him the tail and his legs and talked about his nose being long to protect its eyes, but Jack was most interested in putting it back! It was very cool for the waitress to do that though...Jack talked about it most of the way home! After a long nap by a few of us, (Jon watched the US Open, I fell asleep on the couch) Jack woke up and immediately requested to go on a bike ride. So we packed up a picnic lunch and headed on our bikes for the pool. Jack wasn't so sure he liked the big pool, but was much happier at the wading pool. Bike trip home, a few quick books and then off to bed. What a great day!!
Thank you, Jon, for being such an amazing father! You far exceed the typical dad and Jack is so lucky to have you!! From all of the extra snuggles you give, to helping out around the house, to putting us before your job, to all of the sand castles you've built, to all of the love you give us...we both say thank you from the bottom of our hearts!! We love you!!
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Yucky Kisses!!
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
More Jack-isms
And then a few minutes later, I got "When big boys drink beer, they laugh at other big boys." So I inquire a little more and he told me that's what happened with Daddy at the softball game. Guess our little boy is very observant!!
Monday, June 7, 2010
Big Ambitions!
Thursday, June 3, 2010
As the Wheels Turn
Well ladies and gentlemen...we have a rider!! Jack can officially ride his trike!! He's been working since last summer to get his little legs long enough to hit the pedals and put himself into motion! He did it once for Jon about a month ago and hasn't done it since then. I caught him one time doing a 3-pedal around but he wouldn't do it again for me to catch it on video. Well, tonight...same story, different day! I pull up and he's pedaling his little heart out down the sidewalk with Oma. I run inside to get the video camera...he won't do it for me again. Soooooooooo....major bribing on mom's part...I offered ice cream for riding his trike for the video. And it worked!! So here's the little guy riding his trike...big accomplishment in the little man's life!
So on a side note: I've been driving my mom's Bug this week so she can have the van if need be. Let's just say there's 2 problems with that: #1- It's a stick shift. #2- I haven't driven a stick shift in a LONG time!! Now this stick shift is a little different that what I was "raised" on...the reverse is right next to 1st gear...totally throws me off and makes me nervous!! Yesterday, I had to parallel park on a hill...MAJOR disaster for Libby. Oh yeah...when I pulled in I had to reverse to try and get closer...that wasn't working well...I reved the engine, rolled forward...not a good situation! And then to top it off, I watched someone park right in front of me...and get incredibly close. I just kept hoping and praying that the car was gone by the time I got off work...no such luck! So i sat in the Bug for a while and thought maybe if I just wait, they'll show up and drive away. Now I just have to try...so I crank the wheel, very slooooooooowly get going and start moving, get nervous that I'm too close and slam on the breaks. So I'm thinking, great, now I have to reverse and I'm not good at that (remember, rolled forward earlier in the day trying to do that exact thing!). So I take a deep breath, inch slowly forward, luckily did not scratch the car in front of me and got out...sigh of relief!! Well tonight I'm driving home, pull up to a stoplight, which also happens to be on a small hill. And then the dreaded...a car pulls up behind me! I'm almost in a panic attack thinking I'm going to roll into this guy. The car in front of me turns right, so it's, of course, my turn to pull up to the light. STAGE FRIGHT!!! I try once, roll backwards...get nervous, so I flag the guy to go around me. Talk about mortifying...I was almost in tears!!! So he pulls up next to me, still can't get into the turning lane, so there I sit...frozen....great. So I finally got up the little hill, made it home with only one stall (had two on the way in!). Maybe Jon should take the bug tomorrow so I can be safe in my wonderful little Honda...
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Happy Month of May!!
The next weekend Oma and Opa came up to help stain our deck. Jack wanted to be a helper himself, so we had to come up with some other activities for him...which included running through the sprinkler and "painting" the neighbor's fence...with water, of course!! The deck turned out great, thanks to some extra sunshine on Sunday. We almost missed being able to do it because it rained Sunday morning, but God sent us some sunshine and we stained away!
This last weekend, we took an extra special trip down to see Dawn, Ryan, Dylan and Austin. Jackson was superb in the car!! I was fairly nervous for the 6 hour drive, but Jack proved us otherwise!! He even drove the whole way over in his big boy underwear, warned us when he needed to go, held it in until we got to a gas station...impressed me!! We had a great time over in Williamsburg. Dawn and Ryan have certainly found a wonderful town to live in and raise those two boys!! When we got there on Friday, we ate supper and then they had their neighborhood Friday Night Lights, where everyone gets together at one house, has a fire pit and the kids all play. Man how I wish our neighborhood was like that!! Saturday, we got to enjoy the park, Java Lounge, and later swimming. Saturday night, we headed into Iowa City and ate at a great pizza place. The boys had a lot of fun entertaining each other and there were lots of laughs! Adam and his girlfriend, Bethany, came down on Sunday which was great to see them!! Sunday afternoon we went golfing and then had a family softball game, which proved the point that this lady isn't so hot at sports!! :) It gave me a decent workout though!! Monday morning, the ladies took a quick trip to the outlet mall in Williamsburg and then we were on our way back. A quick trip to Acute Care and then safely into our driveway. Poor little Jack contracted Hand, Foot, Mouth disease from somewhere, but managed to hang in there and not be too cranky! He had some mild fevers and a rash, but overall did alright. There wasn't much sleeping, but luckily, with lots of flexibility from the other Burns family, we managed just fine!! Thank you for such a fun, relaxing and enjoyable weekend guys!! We miss you already and can't wait to see you again!!





























